We found our doula!
We told our story of Louisa’s birth at home, and how traumatic was the hospital experience for both of us. She said that this time around you should not have a home birth as it may be too dangerous… she advices us to have an hospital birth maybe in the midwife led unit as we are considered at risk.
I knew that being pregnant will bring me back the feeling of the first birth, the wonderful joy of having a calm and peaceful home birth in contrast with the traumatic hospital experience that followed. I suppose that the birth was so fantastic, that I did not feel the need to solve any fears related to this hospital experience. But now it is the time to do it, I have to go through this even if it is painful to assure a wonderful and peaceful birth again.